Falling love with running again....

Im kinda beginning to love jogging all over again... Over the last few years due to my terrible back injury I dare not run. Each time I run I will end up having tons of undesirable pain and discomfort... Or I may just fall during the run which incurred more pain to my back... Another contributing factor probably was the person Im running with then sucks big time too... Never understand the kind of traumatizing feeling that I felt each time we ran...

Heh.. No worries now.. Cause I found a good running partner... And this give me another reason to love him even more... But I always feel bad during the run cause he have to follow my slow pace and it seem pretty tiring on him... Everytime I ask him to go ahead and I will catch up, I reckon probably he is just ignoring me and carry on running next to me... It kinda let me feel a sense of security... I feel safe running with him and this make me wanne run more... Hmmm... I reckon I will be able to make it for Standard Chartered Marathon end of the year.... Hee.... Thanks to you love... You the best....

Crazy Chinatown....

After so many years of saying that I wanne go Chinatown to the 年货市场。。。I finally make it there today.. Thanks Love, you granted my wish... Hee :p

The moment we step out of Chinatown Station, hmmm.... I think is exit A... I can people everywhere... It like 人山人海。。。Every stall there is people buying and tasting out the delicious CNY goodies... And the interesting thing is the people at the stall will say things like "老板不在可以乱乱卖。。。or some other interesting things like 生意不好。。。blah blah blah !!! Imagine is just 6 days away from CNY and is already so much people, what about the last day??? I reckon it gonna be flooded with people... Maybe 2times more... Whatever... But Im glad that I manage to walk the whole market and tasted many "Taiwan imported Jellies"...

At least this is the only place I can sense the CNY atmosphere...

Another crappy day...

Another crappy, yet peaceful day at work despite tons of failed consignment I still manage to end my beautiful day with 45cases... Kak zan told us about our new sitting arrangement, and guess what... I the only chinese sitting in the cluster... And the best things Im sitting with all the senior citizens in the team... Damn!!! My current cluster is called the young and lively aka nosey cluster... The cluster where Im gonna be in is called a dead city... It super boring... I can foresee I will soon age 10yrs faster and my mouth gonna stink big time, cause no one talk other then calling the customer... Argh!!!

I cant wait for dinner time to come, once the time turn 1800hrs and Im all ready to leave... I spend the whole lunch time Q-ing up in the bank and missed my lunch... Crap!!! Had dinner with mummy and my god parents @ Soup Restaurant...

Look at the delicious Chicken... Yummy!!!

This is the first "Family" Photo with my god parent... Hee!!! :P

I think my godma and I look like 红包 in the photo... So red!!!!!

Reflection.....

Another fun, fruitful day... Complete 30 cases by 11plus and I was already slacking around, gossiping, and munching my apple... Hee :P Went Simpang with Peili for lunch, although it just a short 1hr lunch, but she shock me with her habits, lifestyle, and many more... I cant help but starting thinking how much I used to blame my mum when I was younger, when she was not around to tell me what right and wrong.. Never give me the TLCs every mother should have done.. Having to take care of myself, cooking, washing, and many more... Today, Im proud and glad that the way Im brought up, at least Im independent on myself in many ways. I eat and spend everything I earn myself.. Anything extra will goes to mummy spending fund.. Haha!! Or pampering the precious people around me... So in many ways Im really grateful to my mum... She is the best mum ever... But we look more like enemy then mother and daughter... Hee...

Never can I imagine how much a person can rely on their parents or their other half even on the smallest matter, or simple decision making. Damn!!! I reckon I don't have that much of patience if my other half is like totally dependent on me, even on educating my own kids... So I must say Thumb up Aaron... You have done well as a husband and at the same time you have also done a really bad job as a husband... Peili is really lucky to have you around, but at the same time should one day she loss you... Then she is totally screwed... But I pray for you guys to have everlasting love... It nice to know or see people grow old together... Knowing how they started from school days till, been a parents, till many more happening days in their beautiful life... I always wish to be walking down the street everyday holding hand with my husband when we are in our old age..

As I was sharing this with H over dinner earlier but I cant help but to think about myself again... Sigh!!! Although Im pretty much independent but at times when my back is giving me hell lots of problem, subconsciously I realized I tend to look for someone I can rely on. The little girl in me told me that is alright to be a little naughty, is ok with a little tantrum, is fine to grumble... Will there be a day the one I rely on so much tell me that he had enough of my poor health and leave me... Or maybe I should just keep all the pain to myself and continual protracting my independent self...

Hmmm... Sometime, I find myself really hard to please or satisfies... There is so much I wanted, but the Janessa in me told me that I need to beware of everyone and everything.. I felt that Im really selfish at times... I said things to protect myself, and indirectly or unknowingly I have hurt people I care and love...

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Good-bye 2009... Gone are all the bad memories and poor health... All the hard work which was not recognize last year, I will try harder this year. Hmmm... I should say 10 times harder... 总有一天会我的努力会有人知道也会珍惜的。。。

Welcome 2010... Although the year didn't start off well with any good new at work but Im learning to accept this is just part and parcel of our life... I have slack my way through January in holiday mood, but at least Im glad I started February well with goals and targets set that provided Im still gonna be in this company... Oops!!! I love the people Im working with, but not all the craziness when all the crappy policies are implemented... Then things turn out pretty yucky...

Turning 23... I actually look forward to turning 23 or should I say having to celebrate my birthday... Because last few birthday was a disaster... Only the insider know why... This year's birthday was the best comparing to my 18th and 21st... At least i don't have to face the music during and after the whole BBQ is over.. Hee :) Another reason I love my birthday is because I love gathering... I have friends whom I have not seen over the last eight years since we all left school.. Buddies that never leave me alone despite how little we meet up... They are the true friends... Families which I love, but the only regret was mummy is not around to celebrate my birthday, but Im glad we make it up with a shopping trip the next day... But what a waste that no pictures was taken... Damn!!! Hmm... At least I have the most beautiful picture save in my heart, and that give me another reason to treasure this man more...

Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day... Another occasion I look forward to every year... Cause it another gathering session.. Haha!!! But this year it a little different, cause Valentine's Day is the first day of CNY.. I wonder how this V-Day will be like.. Hmmm....

New Year Resolution....

1 Save money (hmmm... this is like every yr's plan but somehow it always....)

2 Cannot buy any bag or shoe (except running shoes) for the next 6 months.... (this is part of $$$ saving... Hahaha...)

3 Really need to take good care of my health (Healthy diet + regular exercise + regular follow up with Mr See + some TLCs = I a happy and healthy girl)

4 If no.3 is in place... I should be able to participate in Standard Chartered Marathon y end of the year... This is my goal for 2010...

5 TBA... :)

Lead by example...

Honestly speaking.... Since the start of 2010 till now which is like 13days only, excluding the weekends and holiday, I have worked 10days and I'm super low in moral. Totally no motivation to work. All the new rulings and sudden implementation is driving everyone else in the team crazy.

When I first join the team, I will willingly work OT and rush close my cases pending. I will also aim to hit the targets, the 24hrs, 48hrs cases closed, the proactive notification to sure fail consignment... I have never once fail to hit them every month, which Im super proud about it... But now everyday Im at work, I will just ignore all this important targets and neglect the pending cases... During my free time, I would rather play with my Iphone or chit chat with the ladies around...

We were told that we will not be given any time off, nor are we allow to be late everyday... But are our supervisors showing good example to us??? NO, they are not. We were all told that we no longer enjoy the 15mins grace period every morning, meaning we have to log in to our phone by latest 0830hrs sharp. Failing which we will be issue with a warning letter on the 3rd time that we are late... But none of our supervisors were on time at all...

They claimed we always grumble about our never ending, and under paid work... And we also misused the privileges that we were given, so we should all stop grumbling and be thankful that we still have our damn job... The fact is, our never ending grumble about our work is the truth...

Maybe one day when we are being recognize by our effort, or should I say started to be recognize by people around especially the management. Maybe the rightful credit should come to us instead of our "helpful" supervisors or manager, we would all probably stop grumbling and in fact give in/put in more effort on our work...

Seriously... I felt that the company should review on the management attitude prior to the people like us... If they have lead us by examples, we as a staff will definitely in return commit to our work....

Im tired... In fact, I reach home everyday feeling really exhausted despite the fact I didn't do much things at work... It time to move on...

Alive after 1800hrs...

I can't believe today was such a long draggy, and boring day at work. Everything seem to passes by so slowly, and yet I have tons of work to be done. Thank god Azza came to me during lunch time, or else I'm gonna miss the last lunch bus to Simei...

Though after lunch, time would have pass faster, but we were all struck by bad news by Kak Zan & Audrey on our team and individuals targets. That not the end, we were all warned on our time-off, urgent leave, medical leave, and etc... I think it all crap, and bullshit. It like the company trying to cut cost with such a dirty and crappy methods. With the number of whatever leaves or crap you have then you will be issue with a "FINAL WARNING" and if same crap committed within this certain period of time then you will be terminated. Why not just tell us all straight that the company wanne cut cost by reducing the number of head-counts, so better BEWARE..

Whatever.... I will just do what I gotta do, start work at 0830hrs sharp, and leave the damn place at 1800hrs sharp.

Thank god I have him for me to grumble all this crappy things happening at work. The times we spend together always seem to pass so quickly, but we had a great dinner cum supper. Hee ('',)

Spend 19.5 on everything, can you believe it... We have tons of food, from my all time favorite Beef Ball noodles at 85 market to the Roasted Chestnuts sold at the pasar malam, and some other delicious snacks... That was crazy... It been such a long time since I have tasted all this food. Hmmm....Yummy!!! I think instead of losing 5kg, I might probably ended up gaining back another 5kg...

Good Bye 2009.. Welcome 2010...

Can't believe it already 2010.. How time flies without us noticing it... 2009 have been a pretty tough year for everyone, including myself. Crisis after crisis... Facing some turning point in life which let me realized I'm actually not alone... Having great girlfriends like Azza and Jesely that always so supportive of me.

Having a pain in the ass as your manager which often pick on you, irregardless you are right or wrong, I'm just in some deep shit whenever she got involve with my consignments. But then again, thanks to her, it make me a tougher person. Let hope 2010 will be a better year and I wont have to go into her room or alice's room to listen to their craps again and NO MORE WARNING LETTER....

Well.. at least something which I'm proud and happy about. A beautiful start to 2010 with great companions around. Someone whom i gaga for since school days and now finally 如愿以偿... Hehehe!!! Just a short one month, as least i finally know and feel how is it like to be pampered by someone... Having him around to give me my daily energy booster to keep me going far and strong. Hmmm... The weird things is when I'm with him, I somehow turn into a little girl unknowingly, without the tough strong shield/mask which I'm wearing everyday, or should i say that has been protecting me... Whatever it is, I'm enjoying every moments with him around, even it is just lazzing around... Thanks Love...

Hmmm... First day of work for 2010, keep telling myself to remain calm and patience at all time irregardless of whatever crap and nonsense I gotta face. I'm glad despite the fact that the team was down with many unplanned absenteeism and tons of cases and follow ups, I still manage to survive the day without cursing and swearing at anyone or anything. I think the little msg my love send me does work somehow.. Hee ('',)

Let hope for a better day tomorrow, or should i say later... No more mad rush of cases, hopefully no, keeping my finger all cross....

Hyper + Pressure = Crazy

2nd day back to work and im super hyper, unlike my usual self... But reckon im kinda enjoying this weird hyperness in me... i think it gonna last a long time too, but i guess Kak Zan, audrey and my buddies gonna tie me to my chair and forbid me from talking... heheh (",)

but i dont care...

I think someone have spread his craziness to me over the last 2weeks of my leave... turning me into crazy little girl... Today, during my 45mins of PMI session with Kak Zan & Audrey, there is this weird hyperness in me which allow me to go through this session smoothly, as the session goes on, I laugh and crap through my session, but as i look at the result im helding on im kinda disappointed. if not for the crappy warning letter given by that crazy B***H, i know i could have scored better. I know i can. But what Audrey and Kak Zan said make me felt even worse...

A beautiful nightmare...

Sometime life can be so amazing and beautiful, but the very next moment it can turn into a nightmare which for some people took forever to walk out from it... And some just move on like the nightmare never exist...

I just walked out from a terrible one recently, it was caused by my own foolishness to be committed, knowing i will not gain anything in return... And yet i still go ahead... But im glad it took me just a few days to realize this nightmare actually is a start to a beautiful, sweet dream... And it turn me into a much stronger person then before... In fact, i should thanks him for everything... If not i will never realize what is call true happiness...